WHY DO I GET STUCK IN MY HEAD!!

You know those moments where you come up with such a great idea and then you sabotage yourself every time you try to create it – yea that’s me!! To one day build a community helping, encouraging and empowering women through their healing journey and also to be able to work from home. It’s really that simple right?

Creating a community where I am able to share with women my coaching, motivational quotes and stories of not only what i have been through but what others have been through. A place where women are able to be vulnerable but also feel safe enough to share their stories and pain with no judgement.

So that’s what i did, I created a plan, writing out everything I wanted to share, post and ask my community of amazing healing women. Do I have regular Q & A’s? Do I post twice a day or once a day every day? Should I create a conversation around the hard deep reflective questions? There was so much to put into place and I was excited to create it all. The plan was all coming together and all i needed to do was just take it from my notes on my phone and create the FB group and share to my socials. It was fun until It wasn’t…

As soon as I created the FB group and was about to put it out on my socials I instantly got in my head and everything went down hill from there. All my plans, and idea’s, everything I had worked hard to put together started to freak me out. I stopped writing blog posts, stopped coming up with motivational quotes to share, I was not doing anything anymore. It was a dream that died instantly because I got in my own way! My self talk went from ” You can do this, so many women need this group, this motivation” to ” I can’t do this, no one will read my stuff or engage with my posts, its a waste of time”. I would tell myself I couldn’t do this because who was going to listen or chat with some small town girl who has only spent 20+ years working in mental health and has and still is going through her own healing journey. Anyone??? I told myself no one will come. It was a downward spiral and my great plan, everything i had spent hours creating was becoming a distant thought in the air.

I threw the whole idea away ( 6 years to be exact.) and didn’t look at it again until just recently. One day i found everything, all the plan ideas and what i wanted to do, it was exciting once again. There was a feeling that ignited within me, a feeling of excitement and remembrance of something I once loved. The plan was right there all laid out for me, I just need to make that first step and not get inside my head again, not letting self sabotage take over and talk me out of it.

So here I am 6 years later at a different spot in my life, I am older and would like to think wiser, haha. Taking the necessary steps to make this a reality, create this community and share stories of healing. I would love to take you all on this journey with me! So if you here for it I appreciate you and thank you, but if your not that’s ok I still appreciate you and hope that maybe you will love my other posts on different topics.

Love
TJ